Thursday, May 31, 2012

We're all the same.

Since my trip to Seattle last night... I've felt really happy! I couldn't fall asleep for an hour and a half after I got in bed because I just felt so happy and motivated and wonderful!

...Of course that happiness kinda died when I woke up at 5:40am realizing I had only gotten about 5 1/2  hours of sleep... But hey, that's what naps are for, right?!

I have so much I want to tell you about how it all went, but I don't want it to become old news for you because I might use part of it in my girls camp devo (because yes, I have been prepping for that since laurels conference a few months ago.... be impressed) BUT IT WAS SO AMAZING. Good feelings all over. Happy smiles. Lots of love to people I didn't even know. Bonding with my fellow priest and laurels, and talking with everybody on the bus coming home about our experiences and everyone growing from what each other learned! Picture it like a testimony meeting, only cooler ...Seriously. Gah. Service. What a cool thing.  Love love love it. 

Biggest lesson learned (which is really just a big fat duh) We're all the same. One lady I talked to who had started to turn her life around and was in school and working, she told me she would still come back to the homeless people because she knows what it's like to be there, and any of us could find ourselves out on the streets someday and she wants them to be there for her, incase that happens, just like how she is there for them right now. The other big thing I realized is that I thought I was doing service to them, but they were the ones doing service for me.

That woman who I had talked to, had begun to leave with her husband, but she made her way to me instead and gave me this wonderful hug as if she'd known me since I was a baby and told me to keep doing what I do. I love her and I hardly know her! Funny how that works!




Monday, May 21, 2012

i hear you sista

OK so you know on Pinterest when you get on and you see that I have pinned like thousands of pictures of cute couples and wedding crap? yea well I get on this mood, you could say, whereI am like "WHY Am I NOT MARRIED NOW!" this happens 2 days a week (recently more often.)
So i can relate to you and one more thing
get you head srewed on straigth girl or I might have to do it for you, you are a freakin' amazing person who WILL get a freakin' amazin' gguy. Don't you worry

As Sarah Franks says:
"It will all be worth it"

SO MORAL OF THE STORY:


It will all be worth it!

Sunday, May 20, 2012

Story of my life:





So I'm all like.... over here.... going through one of THOSE weeks (I know, I know, they happen every week and a half) where I just can't stand being my age... And sometimes I feel like I'm more mature than everyone else cause my mind is so far into the future... But really I'M the immature one because I'm so obsessed with the what could be's  instead of enjoying the now....making me immature to the teenage world? Wow. I don't think i've ever said anything that makes so little sense. 

I CAN'T SPIT IT OUT. 

Okay. Maybe that doesn't make sense. But to simplify it.... I feel like I always jump to the worst case scenarios of the what could be's ...for example: I'M going to be the lonely woman who never gets married... Or if I do, it will be to that guy who isn't super attractive and I only marry him because I can't stand being alone... ORRR if I don't get married in this life, then in the next life all of the amazing dudes will be taken! 
It's like, I don't compare myself to others with the typical "oh I wish I had her clothes" or "if only I had her skin" ya know, WHATEVER. But maybe I compare in the way that's like "I'll never be good enough to find the right man"... 

...and that scares me.
*sighhhh*
#hannahproblems


I think I just need to focus on these photos a little bit more:








Sometimes I just forget that God's got my back and won't leave me out in the dust because I'm just as good as anyone else out there with "the perfect guy".

I just gotta remember that.
*exhales*


and this one was for you (:









Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Out-In

The Sun is out and I am in, why?

Because
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                           k
has dragged me down to the very depths of not being outside.

Nonetheless (<-that word always reminds me of my mom) i am grateful for the sunshine.

Maybe its just me, but I feel guilty when it is sunny and I am inside...

-Mesa